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Date / Time : Sunday, December 18, 2011 / 9:30 AM
Words are being stucked up in my heart, i wouldnt dare to say a word baby. Let the nature take over. im tired, seriously dead tired. I know words no longer mean a thing. I understand you're tired too. I once believed that i could get your heart even when you loved her first... But im totally wrong. To think that you actually could let me go so easily. And when ive said i wanna to change for you, i seriously mean it, but there you are pointing out even more and more mistakes of mine. It hurts so much that, i eventually would like to stay quiet. Yes. ive lost. I lost you, i can never make you mine. This love has ended. And surely God is telling me that it is time to move on to my studies. Just at the right time. You know, ive never say that you're not good enough. But i seriously wish the sensitiveness in you could slightly change a little. You said that you've done so much for me but i see nothing in it, but hey baby if you're really sincere i can feel... but there you are yelling and shouting at me. We're always fighting over something so minor. I never had any valentine like you, having such special illness & character... Im taking this as an experienced gained... Well, i told God last night before ive gone to bed... If He wants me to wait, i would. I dont mind. All i wanted was just us to be in love peacefully, like other couples are doing, doing great and happily in love... Cant we have a little of that in us too? Why do we have to be always quarreling? God, if me and him is meant to be together, let us have some peace will you? I know youre letting me to go through these shits... But God, im really breaking down soon...
-Somebody save me. I seriously loved him with everything. I put in efforts too. Now im fucking left with nothing... SKX<3
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Date / Time : Friday, December 9, 2011 / 9:06 PM
My dearest brother, i miss the fun days back then when we used to be so close. I remember how you helped me to get that guy who bullied me in the past, and how much you dote on me... Time passed, people changed. We're all not the same. Especially you.. I dont know what happened to you, but for all i know is that we'll always be blooded siblings, and i'll always love you<3 Forget about the past, and start anew. I hope and i wish you would, and you could, someday. Be brave enough to say goodbye, and life would reward you with a new hello. I dont wanna see you getting drunk everynight anymore, dont want to see you faking a smile... It hurts me too.
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Date / Time : Thursday, December 8, 2011 / 11:12 PM
The fact that we can never choose who to love, who to fall for and who to not. Feelings are something you cannot control. And LGBT ( LesbianGayBisexualTransgender) are no longer categorized as the " Weirdos ". Everyone can choose who to love.
Im fucking having this lousy feeling again. Why is it that ive to always feel this way? The feeling of having someone by your side, but the heart isnt with you, it actually belongs to someone else... Yet you cant control and couldnt help with it, all you can do is just to wait emptily for him to get over his past-love... This kind of feelings suck la, but i am trying to convince myself that if i were to get his heart with me at the end of the day, all these while of waiting if quite worth while...
Yasmin
I am born to be who i am .
I never needed you to judge me .
No one is perfect .
No guys are trustable .
I can be independent , alone .
Love me , i will love you back
Hate me , not my fuckin prob(:
Fcuk off if you don't like what you see here .
